Reaper's Legacy
(Reapers Motorcycle Club Book 2)
By Joanna Wylde
Available Jan. 28, 2014
Available Jan. 28, 2014
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Eight
years ago, Sophie gave her heart—and her virginity—to Zach Barrett on a
night that couldn’t have been less romantic or more embarrassing. Zach’s
step-brother, a steely-muscled, tattooed biker named Ruger, caught them
in the act, getting a peep show of Sophie he’s never forgotten.
She may have lost her dignity that fateful night, but Sophie also gained something precious—her son Noah. Unfortunately, Zach’s a deadbeat dad, leaving Ruger to be Noah’s only male role model. When he discovers Sophie and his nephew living in near poverty, Ruger takes matters into his own hands—with the help of the Reapers Motorcycle Club—to give them a better life.
Living with outlaw bikers wasn’t Sophie’s plan for her son, but Ruger isn’t giving her a choice. He’ll be there for Noah, whether she wants him or not. But Sophie does want him, has always wanted him. Now she’ll learn that taking a biker to bed can get a girl dirty in every way…
She may have lost her dignity that fateful night, but Sophie also gained something precious—her son Noah. Unfortunately, Zach’s a deadbeat dad, leaving Ruger to be Noah’s only male role model. When he discovers Sophie and his nephew living in near poverty, Ruger takes matters into his own hands—with the help of the Reapers Motorcycle Club—to give them a better life.
Living with outlaw bikers wasn’t Sophie’s plan for her son, but Ruger isn’t giving her a choice. He’ll be there for Noah, whether she wants him or not. But Sophie does want him, has always wanted him. Now she’ll learn that taking a biker to bed can get a girl dirty in every way…
PROLOGUE
EIGHT YEARS AGO
COEUR D’ALENE, IDAHO
SOPHIE
“I’m
gonna stick it in now.”
Zach’s
voice was rough and full of urgent need.
I
smelled him all around me, sweaty and hungry and so beautiful I could die.
After tonight he’d be mine for real. His hand reached down between us, guiding
the round, rubbery head of his penis as it nudged my opening. It felt weird. He
pushed at me and I guess he missed, because it hit me too high and—
“Ouch!
Shit, Zach, that hurts. I think you’re doing it wrong.”
He
stopped immediately and grinned down at me, the gap between his front teeth
teasing. Holy crap, I loved that grin. I’d had the biggest crush on Zach since
we were freshmen, but he never noticed me, not until a couple of months ago. My
folks didn’t let me out much, but I’d managed to get permission to stay with
Lyssa for a night and we’d snuck out to a party in July. Zach had honed in and
we’d been a couple ever since.
I’d
gotten really good at sneaking out.
“Sorry,
babe,” he murmured, leaning down to kiss me. I softened immediately, loving the
feel of his lips ghosting across mine. He adjusted himself and started sliding
into me again, slow and steady. This time he didn’t miss, and I stiffened as he
stretched me open wide.
Then he
hit a barrier and paused.
I opened
my eyes and looked up at him. He looked back down at me and I knew right then
and there I’d never love anyone half so much as I loved Zachary Barrett.
“Ready?”
he whispered. I nodded.
He
shoved into me and I squealed, pain ripping between my legs. Zach kept me
pinned with his hips as I gasped, shocked. Then he pulled out and I tried to
catch my breath. Before I could, though, he’d thrust back into me. Hard. Ouch.
“Holy
shit, you’re tight,” he muttered. He pushed himself up on his hands, throwing
his head back as he pumped into my body, over and over, eyes closed and face
straining with hunger.
I don’t
know what I’d expected.
I mean,
I wasn’t stupid. I knew it wouldn’t be perfect the first time, no matter what
the romance books said. And it didn’t hurt that much. But it sure as
shit didn’t feel good, either.
Zach
moved faster, and I turned my head on the couch to look across the small
apartment. His brother’s, apparently. We had it for the night—it was supposed
to be our special, perfect time together. I’d expected flowers or soft music
and wine or something. Stupid. Zach had pizza and some beer from his brother’s
fridge.
“Ouch,”
I muttered again as he paused, face twisting.
“Shit,
I’m gonna come,” he gasped. I felt his penis throb deep inside, almost
twitching. It was weird. Really weird. And nothing like I’d seen in movies—not
even a little bit.
Was that
it?
Huh . .
.
“Oh, fuck
that’s good.”
The
apartment door opened as Zach collapsed between my legs, oblivious to the
world. I couldn’t do anything but watch in horror as a man walked in.
I didn’t
know him, but he couldn’t have been Zach’s brother. He didn’t look anything
like Zach, who was taller than me, but not by a whole lot. This guy was really
tall, and muscular in the way men who work with their hands get from heavy
lifting on the job.
He wore
a black leather vest with patches over a ratty T-shirt and jeans that had
streaks of dark motor oil or grease or something. A half rack of beer dangled
from one hand. His hair was short and dark. Almost military. His lip was
pierced and he wore a two rings in his left ear and one in his right, like a
pirate. Eyebrow was pierced, too. His features were bluntly handsome, but
nobody would ever call him pretty. Big black boots covered his feet, and the
chain from his wallet hung low across his hip. One of his arms had a
full-sleeve tattoo. The other had a skull with crossed blades behind it.
He
stopped in the doorway and looked us over, slowly shaking his head.
“I told
you what I’d do if you broke into my place again,” he said quietly. Zach popped
up and his face went white. His entire body—with one notable
exception—stiffened. I felt that exception slither out of me, along with some
fluid, and realized we hadn’t even bothered to put a towel down or anything.
Ewww.
But how
was I supposed to know we’d need a towel?
“Shit,”
Zach said, his voice a tight squeak. “Ruger, I can explain—”
“Don’t
fuckin’ explain,” Ruger said, pushing forward into the room. He slammed the
door shut behind him and walked over to the couch. I tried to hide my head in
Zach’s chest, more ashamed and embarrassed than I’d ever been in my life.
Flowers.
Were flowers too much to ask?
“Jesus
Christ, what is she? Twelve?” Ruger asked, giving the couch a kick. It
shuddered under me, and Zach sat up, pulling away from my body. I shrieked and
pushed my hands down between us, trying to cover myself from his brother’s
gaze.
Shit.
SHIT.
Then it
got worse.
The brother—Rooger?
whatever the hell kind of name that was—looked right at me as he
leaned across my body, grabbing a folded blanket from the back of the couch.
He
tossed it over my crotch.
I moaned
and died a little inside. My legs were still spread wide, my skirt up high
around my waist. He’d seen everything. Everything. This was supposed to
be the most romantic night of my life and now I just wanted to go home and cry.
“I’m
takin’ a shower and by the time I’m done, you need to be gone,” Ruger said,
getting in Zach’s face. My boyfriend flinched. “And stay the fuck outta my
apartment.”
With
that, he walked down the hall to the bathroom, banging the door shut. Seconds
later I heard the shower come on. Zach jumped up, muttering.
“Asshole.
He’s such a goddamn asshole.”
“Was
that your brother?”
“Yeah.
He’s a prick.”
I sat up
and straightened my shirt. Thank God I hadn’t taken it off. Zach loved to touch
my breasts, but we’d actually moved pretty fast once we got started. I managed
to get to my feet, holding the blanket in front of me while I pulled down my
skirt. I had no idea where my panties had gone, but a quick look around didn’t
reveal them. I leaned over the couch, digging in the pillows, hunting. No luck,
but I managed to stick my hand in the disgusting wet spot we’d left behind.
I felt
like such a whore.
“Fuck!”
Zach yelled behind me. My head jerked up—how could things possibly get any
worse? “Holy fuck, I cannot fucking believe this!”
“What’s
wrong?”
“The
condom broke,” he said, eyes wide. “The fucking condom broke. This has
got to be the worst night of my life. You better not be pregnant.”
The air
froze in my lungs. Apparently things could get worse.
Zach
held the broken rubber out toward me. I stared down at the nasty thing, not
quite believing my bad luck.
“Did you
do it wrong?” I whispered. He shrugged, not answering.
“It’s
probably okay,” I said after another long pause. “I mean, my period just ended.
You can’t get pregnant that soon after your period, right?”
“Um,
yeah, probably,” he said, flushing and looking away. “I didn’t really pay
attention to that shit in class. I mean, I always use a condom. Always. They
never break, not even—”
My
breath caught and I felt hot tears well up in my eyes.
“You
told me you’d only done it once before,” I said softly. He winced.
“I’ve
never done it with anyone I loved before,” he said, dropping the broken rubber
and grabbing for my hand. I tried to tug away. The mess on his fingers grossed me
out, but when he pulled me in tight and wrapped his arms around me, I caved.
“Hey,
it’s gonna be okay,” he muttered, rubbing my back as I snuffled against his
shirt. “It’ll be fine. We’re fine. And I’m sorry I wasn’t honest with you. I
was afraid you wouldn’t stick with me if you knew I’d been stupid before. I
don’t care about any other girls and I never will. I just want to be with you.”
“Okay,”
I said, pulling myself together. He shouldn’t have lied, but at least he owned
up to it. Mature couples worked through hard stuff all the time, right? “Um, we
should probably get out of here. Your brother looked pretty pissed. I thought
he gave you a key?”
“My
stepmom has an emergency key,” he said, shrugging. “I took it. He was supposed
to be out of town. Grab the pizza.”
“Should
we leave some for your brother?”
“Screw
him. And he’s my stepbrother. We’re not even really related.”
Oookay.
I found
my shoes and slipped them on, then got my purse and the pizza. I still didn’t
know where my panties were, but just then I heard the shower stop.
We
needed to get out.
Zach
glanced over at the bathroom, then winked at me as he grabbed the half rack off
the counter.
“C’mon,”
he said, taking my hand and pulling me toward the door.
“You’re
stealing his beer?” I asked, feeling a little sick. “Seriously?”
“Fuck
him,” Zach said, narrowing his eyes at me. “He’s a total dick, thinks he’s
better than everyone else. Him and his stupid fucking motorcycle club. They’re
all assholes and criminals, and he is, too. Probably stole it in the first
place. And he can buy more any time he wants, not like us. We’ll take it to
Kimber’s. Her parents are in Mexico.”
We
jogged down the apartment complex stairs, then crossed the parking lot to his
truck. It was kind of old, but at least the full-sized Ford’s king cab had
plenty of room. We’d take it out sometimes, just the two of us, and spend hours
lying in the bed under the stars, kissing and laughing. Other times we packed
three or four couples in, all sitting on each other’s laps.
Zach
hadn’t done such a great job tonight, but that wasn’t his fault. Sometimes life
just didn’t follow the plan. I was still crazy about him, though.
“Hey,” I
said, stopping him as he opened the driver’s side door.
I turned
him around and popped up onto my toes, kissing him long and slow. “I love you.”
“I love you,
too, babe,” Zach said, smoothing my hair back behind my ear. I melted when he
did that—made me feel all safe and protected. “Now let’s go kill some of those
beers. Shit, fuckin’ crazy night. My brother is such a dick.”
I rolled
my eyes and laughed as I hauled ass around the truck.
So
losing my virginity hadn’t been perfect and beautiful and all that. But at
least it was over and Zach loved me.
Too bad
about the panties, though.
I’d
bought them special and everything.
EIGHT MONTHS LATER
RUGER
“Fuck,
it’s my mom. I gotta grab that,” Ruger yelled across the table at Mary Jo,
holding up his cell. The band hadn’t started yet, but the place was still
packed, and he couldn’t hear a damned thing. He didn’t get out much since he’d
started prospecting the Reapers. Earning a place in the club was a full-time
job by itself, and he pulled shifts at the pawnshop, too.
Ma knew
that, and she wouldn’t have called if it wasn’t important.
“Hey,
lemme get outside,” he said loudly into the phone, walking toward the door with
long strides. People got the fuck out of his way, and he bit back a smile. He’d
always been a big guy, but now that he wore an MC cut?
Fuckers
practically dove under the tables when they saw the club patches on his vest.
“’Kay, I’m
outside,” he said, moving away from the crowd in front of the Ironhorse.
“Jesse,
Sophie needs you,” his mom said.
“What do
you mean?” he asked, peering at his bike, parked down the street. Was that guy
getting close to it? Oh, not gonna happen . . .
“So are
you going?” she said. Shit. She’d been talking.
“Fuck,
sorry, ma. Missed what you said.”
“I just
got a panicked phone call from Sophie,” his mom repeated. “Stupid kids. She
went to a kegger with your brother and now she thinks she might be in labor.
He’s too drunk to drive her and she’s having contractions, so she can’t drive
herself. I’m gonna kill him. I can’t believe he’d take her somewhere like that,
especially now.”
“Are you
fuckin’ kidding me?”
“Jesse,
don’t use that language with me,” she snapped. “Can you help her or not? I’m in
Spokane and it’ll take at least an hour to get there. I’ll start making more
phone calls if you can’t do it.”
“Wait,
isn’t it too early?”
“A
little too early, yes,” she replied, her voice tense. “I wanted to call an
ambulance but she insists it’s just Braxton Hicks. Ambulance rides cost a
fortune, you know, and she’s scared of the bills. She wants to go home but I
think she might need the hospital. Can you get her or not? I can meet you there
as soon as I hit town. I’ve got a real bad feeling about this, Jess. Didn’t
sound like Braxton Hicks to me.”
“Yeah,
of course,” he replied, wondering what the hell “Braxton Hicks” were. He saw
Mary Jo come out of the bar, smiling at him ruefully. She knew all about sudden
phone calls and changes in plans. “Where are they?”
He got
the information, then hung up, walking over to his date and shrugging his
shoulders. This sucked. He wanted to get laid, and not at the clubhouse. Some
fuckin’ privacy would be nice for once, and Mary Jo was wild as they got.
“Club
business?” she asked lightly. Thank fuck she wasn’t a drama queen.
“Nope,
family,” he replied. “My asshole stepbrother knocked up his girlfriend and now
she’s going into labor. Needs a ride to the hospital. I’m gonna go get her.”
Mary
Jo’s eyes widened.
“You
should leave,” she said quickly. “I’ll take a cab home. Shit, that sucks . . .
How old is she?”
“Just
turned seventeen.”
“Damn,”
she said, shivering with genuine horror. “I can’t imagine having a kid that
young. Call me later, okay?”
He gave
her a fast but hard kiss. She reached down and offered his cock a quick
squeeze. Ruger groaned, feeling himself stiffen. He really needed to get
laid . . .
Instead,
he pulled away and walked over to his bike.
The
party was halfway to Athol, off in some field that he vaguely remembered
visiting when he was in high school. He found Zach’s truck easy enough. Sophie
stood next to it, looking scared in the summer twilight. Then her face
tightened and she hunched over her giant belly, groaning. Now she looked
terrified.
Ruger
parked his bike and realized he’d have to leave it in the field—no way she
could ride with him. Fucking great. Asshat little shits would probably run over
it or something. Sophie’s face was white with strain, though. No room to fuck
around. She needed to go in the truck, and clearly she needed to go now.
Ruger shook his head, glancing around for his brother.
He still
couldn’t figure out why a smart, beautiful girl like her would pick Zach, of
all people. Sophie had long, reddish-brown hair, beautiful green eyes, and a way
about her that screamed feminine softness—a softness he’d spent more than one
night imagining with his dick in his hand. Even pregnant in the middle of a
field party, she was still gorgeous.
Way the
fuck too young, though.
She saw
him and winced, reaching around to put one hand against her back, stretching as
the contraction ended. Ruger knew she didn’t like him, and he didn’t blame her.
They hadn’t met under the best of circumstances, and things between him and
Zach went further to shit every day. Ruger hated the way he treated their mom
and hated the way he lived his life. More than anything else, he hated the way
the little fuck was already running around on Sophie behind her back.
Cocksucker
didn’t deserve a girl like her, and their kid sure as hell hadn’t won the
lottery when it came to his future daddy.
“How you
doing?” he asked, coming up to Sophie and hunkering down so he could see her
face. Her eyes were full of panic.
“My
water broke,” she said, her voice a hoarse whisper. “The contractions are
coming really fast. Way too fast. It’s supposed to be slow with your first
baby, it never happens this fast. I need to get to the hospital, Ruger. I
shouldn’t have come here.”
“Oh,
fuck me,” he muttered. “You got the keys?”
She
shook her head.
“Zach
does. He’s over by the bonfire. Maybe we should call an ambulance? Oh . . .”
she groaned, leaning over.
“Hang in there,” he said. “I’ll get Zach. I can drive you to the hospital faster than an ambulance at this point.”
“Hang in there,” he said. “I’ll get Zach. I can drive you to the hospital faster than an ambulance at this point.”
She
groaned again and leaned back against the truck. Ruger took off toward the
bonfire, finding Zach half passed out on the ground.
“On your
feet, asshole,” Ruger demanded, grabbing him by the shirt and dragging him
upright. “Keys. Now.”
Zach
looked at him blankly. Was that barf on his shirt? High school kids stood
around watching them, eyes wide as they clutched their big red Solo cups of
cheap beer.
“Fuck
me,” Ruger muttered again, digging down into his brother’s pants pocket, hoping
like hell he hadn’t lost them. This was closer to Zach’s dick than he ever
needed his hand to be. He pulled out the keys, dropping Zach back into the
dirt.
“You
wanna see your kid gettin’ born, get your ass in the truck now,” Ruger told
him. “I’m not waiting for you.”
With
that he took off toward the Ford, wrenching open the door and lifting Sophie
into the backseat. He heard a thudding noise and saw Zach climb into the truck
bed out of the corner of his eye.
Little
prick.
Ruger
turned on the engine and popped it into gear, ready to go. Then he slammed it
back into park, jumped out, and ran over to his bike. He had a little first aid
kit in there. Nothing fancy, but at this rate they might need it. He climbed
back in the truck, pulled out of the field and started toward the highway,
watching Sophie anxiously in the rearview mirror. She was panting hard and then
she screamed.
Every
hair on the back of his neck stood up.
“Holy
shit, I feel like I need to push,” she cried. “Oh, God, it hurts. It hurts so
bad. I’ve never felt anything like this, drive faster. We need to get there
fast . . .”
Her
voice trailed off as she groaned again. Ruger drove faster, wondering if Zach
had something to hold on to. He couldn’t see him back there. Maybe he’d passed
out in the bed.
Hell,
maybe he’d bounced out. Ruger didn’t care either way.
They’d
almost made it to the highway when Sophie started shouting.
“Stop!
Stop the truck.”
Ruger
stopped, hoping to hell that didn’t mean what he thought it did. He threw on
the parking brake and turned to see her, eyes closed, face almost purple and
full of agony. She was crouching forward, moaning.
“Ambulance,”
he said, his voice grim. She nodded tightly. He made the call, giving the
operator the details of their situation. Afterward, he put the phone on
speaker, dropping it to the seat. Then he got out and opened the back door,
leaning in.
“I’m
here with you, Sophie,” the 911 operator told them. “Hold on. The paramedics
only have to come up from Hayden. You’ll see them soon.”
Sophie
groaned through another contraction.
“I have
to push.”
“The
ambulance is ten minutes out,” the operator said. “Can you hold on until they
reach you? They have everything they need to help you with this.”
“FUCK!”
Sophie screamed, squeezing Ruger’s hands so hard his fingers went numb.
“All
right. It’s unlikely the baby will be born before they arrive, but I want you
to get ready, Ruger,” the operator said, her voice so calm she sounded stoned.
How did she do that? He felt about thirty seconds away from a heart attack.
“Sophie needs you now. The good news is that childbirth is natural and her body
knows what to do. A baby born this fast usually means a very smooth delivery.
Do you have a way to wash your hands?”
“Yeah,”
Ruger muttered. “You gotta let go for a sec, Sophie.”
She
shook her head, but he pried his hands free. He ripped into the first aid kit,
pulling out a couple of ridiculously small sanitary wipe packets. Then he
attacked his hands and tried to go after hers.
She
screamed and punched his face.
Holy
shit, girl had some power behind her. Ruger shook his head, then pulled it
together, cheekbone throbbing.
Another
contraction.
“It’s
too early,” Sophie gasped. “I can’t stop it. I have to push now.”
“When is
she due?” the operator asked as Sophie moaned long and low.
“About a
month,” Ruger told her. “It’s too early.”
“All
right. The most important thing is to make sure the baby is breathing. Don’t
let it fall on the ground if it’s born before the EMTs arrive. You’ll have to
catch it. Now don’t panic—it can take hours to push out a baby, especially the
first one. But just as a precaution, I want you to find something warm to wrap
around the child if Sophie delivers. You’ll check the baby’s breathing. If it’s
good, you’ll lay him on the mother’s bare chest, face down, skin to skin. Then
put whatever you have over him. Don’t tug on the cord, cut it, tie it off, or
anything. Keep your hands away from the birth canal. If the afterbirth comes
out, wrap it with the child.”
That’s
when it hit him.
Sophie
was going to have her baby right here on the side of the road. His nephew.
Right
now.
Holy
shit, she needed to get her pants off first.
She wore
leggings and he tried to pull them down with her still inside the cab. It
didn’t work, and she couldn’t seem to find a comfortable position, either.
“We have
to get you out of here,” he said. She shook her head, teeth gritted, but he
picked her up and set her feet on the ground anyway. Then he pulled down her
sopping wet leggings and panties in one smooth move, lifting one foot and then
the other to free her legs from the clinging fabric.
Now
what?
Sophie
cried out again, face tight as she bore down next to him, falling into a squat
beside the truck.
Fuck, he
needed something to keep the baby warm.
Ruger
glanced around frantically, finding exactly nothing, so he pulled off his cut
and tossed it into the truck. Then he ripped his T-shirt over his head. It
wasn’t the best, but it was relatively clean. He’d showered and put on a fresh
one before meeting Mary Jo.
Sophie
pushed for an eternity, crouched down and digging her fingers deep into his
shoulders. He’d have bruises there in the morning. Probably cuts from her nails,
too. Whatever. The 911 operator’s calm voice encouraged them, saying the
ambulance was only five minutes out. Sophie ignored her, lost in her own world
of pain and urgency, giving loud, low groans with every contraction.
“Can you
see the baby’s head?” the operator asked. Ruger froze. “You want me to look?”
“Yes.”
He was
pretty damned sure he didn’t want to look. Fuck. Sophie needed him, though. The
kid needed him, too. Ruger dropped down to peer between her legs.
That’s
when he saw it.
A tiny
head, coming out of her body, covered with dark black hair. Holy crap.
Sophie
sucked in a deep breath and gripped his shoulders even harder. She let out one
loud, long moan as she pushed again.
Then it
happened.
Ruger
reached down—almost in a trance—as the world’s most perfect little human slid
right out of her and into his hands. Sophie started crying with relief as blood
streaked her thighs.
“What’s
happening?” the operator asked. He heard a siren in the distance.
“The
baby just came out,” Ruger muttered, awed. He’d seen a calf born, but that had
nothing on this. “I’m holding it.”
“Is it
breathing?”
He
watched as the newborn opened its little eyes for the first time and looked
right at him. They were blue and round and confused and fucking gorgeous. They
closed again as the baby screwed up its tiny mouth, sucked in a deep breath and
let out a piercing wail.
“Yeah.
Fuck. The kid is fine.”
Ruger
looked up at Sophie as he raised the baby between them. She smiled hesitantly
and reached for her child. Her exhausted, tear-streaked-yet-radiant face was
the second most beautiful thing he’d ever seen in his life.
Right
after those tiny blue eyes.
“You did
good, babe,” he whispered to Sophie.
“Yeah,”
she whispered back. “I did, didn’t I?”
She
kissed the boy’s head softly.
“Hey
Noah . . . It’s mommy,” she said. “I’m gonna take such good care of you. I
promise. Always.”
CHAPTER ONE
SEVEN YEARS LATER
SEATTLE, WASHINGTON
SOPHIE
Our last
night in Seattle didn’t go so great.
My
babysitter, my emergency backup sitter, and my second emergency backup sitter
all had the flu. I’d have been screwed if one of my new neighbors hadn’t
volunteered to keep an eye on Noah. I didn’t really know her, but we’d been
living next to each other for a month and no red flags. Not the best, I know.
You do
what you have to when you’re a single mom.
Then
Dick yelled at me for coming in late for my shift.
I didn’t
tell him I’d nearly missed work altogether because of Noah. And no, I’m not just
calling him Dick because he’s actually a dick (although he is). It’s his real
name.
That
night I truly understood why he was in such a bad mood, because of the six
girls who were supposed to be on, only two showed. Two had the flu
(genuine—half the city had it) and two had dates. Or I’m assuming they had
dates. Their official stories were a dead grandmother (her fifth) and an
infected tattoo.
Apparently
none of the drug stores in her neighborhood carried Bacitracin.
Either
way, things fell to shit fast. We had a band, which put the customers in a good
mood, but the live music and drunken dancing made it even harder to keep up
with my tables. Also made us busier than usual. We would’ve been stretched even
with a full staff. To make things perfect, it was a local band and most of
their fans were college students, which meant crappy tips.
By
eleven I was already tired and needed to pee in a bad way, so I ducked into the
bathroom. Out of toilet paper already (of course), and I knew damned well
nobody had time to restock. I pulled out my phone, doing a quick check for
messages, and saw two. One from Miranda, my babysitter, and a second from
Ruger, the world’s scariest almost-in-law.
Shit.
Miranda
first. I held it to my ear and listened, hoping to hell everything was all
right. No way Dick would let me off early, even for an emergency. Ruger could
wait.
“Mom,
I’m scared,” Noah said.
I froze.
“I took
Miranda’s phone and I’m hiding in the closet,” he continued. “There’s a bad guy
here and he’s smoking inside and he wanted me to smoke, too, and they kept
laughing at me. He tried to tickle me and make me sit on his lap. Now they’re
watching a movie that has naked people in it and I don’t like it. I don’t want
to be here and I want to go home. I want you to come home. I really need
you. Right now.”
I heard
his breath hitch, like he was crying but didn’t want me to know, and then the
message cut out.
I took a
couple of deep breaths, trying to control my surge of adrenaline. I checked the
time on the message—almost forty-five minutes ago. My stomach twisted and for a
second I thought I might puke. Then I pulled it together and left the bathroom.
I managed to walk back into the bar and had Brett, the bartender, unlock the
drawer where we kept our purses.
“I need
to get home, my kid’s in trouble. Tell Dick.”
With
that I headed toward the door, pushing through drunken frat boys. I was almost
out when someone grabbed my arm, spinning me around. My boss stood there,
glaring.
“Where
the hell do you think you’re going, Williams?”
“There’s
an emergency,” I told him. “I need to go home.”
“You
leave me now with a crowd like this, don’t come back,”
Dick
growled. I leaned forward and stared him down, which was pretty easy
considering the guy was hardly more than five feet tall. On good days I thought
of him as a hobbit.
Tonight
he was just a troll.
“I need
to take care of my son,” I said coldly, using my deadliest troll-killing voice.
“Let go of my arm. Now. I’m leaving.”
Driving
home took at least a year.
I kept
trying to call Miranda, but nobody answered. When I reached our ancient
apartment building, I tore up the wooden stairs to the top floor, shaking with
a weird mixture of rage and fear. Miranda’s place was right across from my
little studio, and while my thighs and calves hated the climb, I loved how we
were the only residents up here. Until now.
Tonight
it felt remote and scary.
I heard
music and grunting as I pounded on the door. No answer. I pounded harder and
wondered if I’d have to break in. Then the door flew open. A tall guy with
unbuttoned pants and no shirt blocked the entry. He had the start of a gut and
bloodshot eyes. I smelled pot and booze.
“Yeah?”
he asked, swaying. I tried looking around him, but he blocked me.
“My son,
Noah, is here,” I said, struggling to stay calm and focus on what really
counted. I could kill this asshole later. “I’m here to pick him up.”
“Oh,
yeah. Forgot about him. C’mon in.”
He
stepped aside and I ducked past him. Miranda’s place was a studio just like
ours, so I should’ve seen Noah right away. Instead I spotted my useless
neighbor on the couch, collapsed on her back with her eyes glazed and a dreamy
smile on her face. Her clothes were rumpled, her long hippie skirt shoved up
above her splayed knees. The phone lay on the coffee table in front of her,
next to a bong made out of plastic pens, foil and a Mountain Dew bottle.
Empties surrounded it, because apparently weed wasn’t enough to keep her
entertained while she failed to babysit my seven-year-old child.
“Miranda,
where’s Noah?” I demanded. She looked at me blankly.
“How
should I know?” she slurred.
“Maybe
he went outside,” the guy muttered, turning away from me as he reached into the
fridge for another beer.
I caught
my breath.
Across
his back was a giant tattoo that looked kind of like Ruger’s, only it said
Devil’s Jacks instead of Reapers. Motorcycle club. Bad news. Always bad,
despite what Ruger insisted.
I’d
think about that later. Focus. I needed to find Noah. “Mama?”
His
voice was soft and trembling. I looked around frantically, then saw him
climbing in through an open window facing the street. Oh my God. I moved
toward him, forcing myself to approach oh-so-carefully. Four flights above the
ground and my boy was clinging to a windowsill. If I wasn’t damned careful, I’d
knock him off the ledge.
I
reached out and clamped my hands around his upper arms, pulling him in and
clutching him close. He wrapped around me like a little monkey. I rubbed my
hand up and down his back, whispering how much I loved him and promising never
to leave him alone like that again.
“I don’t
get what you’re so upset about,” Miranda muttered, pulling herself up to make
room for her asshole boyfriend. “There’s a fire escape out there and it’s not like
it’s cold. It’s August. Kid was fine.”
I took a
deep breath, closed my eyes and forced myself to stay calm. Then I opened them
and looked past her.
That’s
when I saw the porn on the TV.
My eyes
skittered away from the sight of a silicone woman screwing four guys
simultaneously. Something terrible took fire in my heart.
Stupid
bitch. Miranda would pay for this.
“What’s
your problem, anyway?” she slurred.
I didn’t
bother answering. I just needed to get my boy out of here and home safe. I’d deal
with my neighbor tomorrow. Maybe by then I’d have calmed down enough not to end
her miserable life.
I
carried Noah out of the apartment and across the hallway to my own door.
Somehow I managed to get it open without dropping him, fingers trembling from
suppressed rage and a health dose of guilt.
I’d
failed him.
My baby
needed me, and instead of protecting him, I’d left him parked with a druggie
who could’ve gotten him killed. Being a single mom sucked.
It took
a warm bath, an hour of snuggles, and four books to get Noah to sleep.
Me? I
wasn’t sure I’d ever sleep again.
The
summer heat didn’t help—I swear, the place had zero airflow. After an hour of
sweating in the darkness, watching his little chest rise and fall, I gave up. I
popped a beer and sat down on our couch, a thousand plans running through my
head. First, I’d kill Miranda. Then either I needed to find a new place to live
or she did. I also pondered whether to call the cops.
I liked
the idea of throwing her and her stoner boyfriend to the wolves. They deserved
a friendly visit from the boys in blue.
But
since her man was in a motorcycle club, calling the cops might not be the
smartest move. Guys in MCs generally weren’t fond of the police, a perspective
he and his club brothers might feel the need to share with me once he made bail.
Not to mention Child Protective Services would get involved, which could also
get pretty ugly.
I loved
Noah and would do anything for him. I was a damned good mother. When other
girls my age were out partying and having fun, I was taking him to the park and
reading him stories. I spent my twenty-first birthday holding him while he
puked from stomach flu instead of hitting the bars. No matter how rough things
got, I spent time with Noah every day and made sure he felt loved.
But I
didn’t look so good on paper.
Single
mom. Dad out of the picture. No family around, crappy studio apartment. Probably
unemployed after tonight . . . What would CPS make of that? Would they blame me
for leaving him with Miranda in the first place?
I had no
idea what to do. I took a long pull on the beer and then turned on my phone,
where Ruger’s message glowed at me accusingly. Crap. I hated calling him. No
matter how much time he spent with us (and he made a point of seeing Noah
regularly), I just couldn’t relax around him. Ruger didn’t like me and I knew
it. I think he blamed me for destroying his relationship with Zach. God knows,
I played my part. I pushed that memory away.
I always
pushed that memory away.
If only
I unnerved him, too, but apparently that was too much to ask. Instead he just
looked right through me, hardly bothering to acknowledge my existence.
Even
more frustrating? Ruger had to be the hottest guy I’d ever met. He was all
danger and hard muscles, with his tattoos and piercings and that goddamned
black Harley of his. When he walked into a room he owned it, because it only
took one look to see he was a fucking badass, the type who takes what he wants
and never says he’s sorry.
I’d been
nursing a hell of a crush on him for longer than I cared to acknowledge,
something he’d failed to notice despite his apparent fascination with every
other woman under the age of forty within five hundred miles. Well, failed to
notice all but once, and that hadn’t exactly ended well.
At least
he never brought any of his club whores around (which I greatly appreciated),
but that didn’t change the fact that he was one of the biggest sluts in north
Idaho.
So
that’s where we stood.
Presented
with my nonthreatening charms, the panhandle’s sexiest, most prolific man-whore
still preferred hanging with my seven-year-old child during his visits.
I sighed
and hit the play button.
“Sophie,
answer your fucking phone,” he said, his voice cold and unyielding, like usual.
“I just got a call from Noah. I talked to him for a while and tried to keep him
calm, but then some bitch started yellin’ and took the phone away. Nobody
answered when I called back. I don’t know what the fuck you’re thinking, but
your kid needs you. Get off your ass and go get him. Now. I swear, if anything
happens to him . . . You don’t wanna go there, Sophie. Just fucking call me
when you find him. No excuses.”
I
dropped the phone and leaned forward on my knees, rubbing my temples with the
tips of my fingers.
In
addition to everything else, now I had to deal with Mr. Being-A-Biker-Isn’t-A-Crime
losing his shit on me. Which he would do, I had no doubt. Ruger was scary
enough in a good mood. The one time I’d seen him truly enraged still gave me
nightmares, and that’s not a figure of speech. Unfortunately, he had a point.
When my son needed me, I hadn’t answered the phone. Thank God Ruger had been
there for Noah. But still . . . I really didn’t want to deal with him right
now, either.
I
couldn’t leave him hanging, though, worried about Noah all night. He’d called
me a bitch the last time I saw him, and maybe he had a point, but I wasn’t a
big enough bitch to torture him like that. I hit the callback button.
“He all
right?” Ruger demanded, not bothering with a hello.
“I’ve
got him and he’s fine,” I said. “I couldn’t hear the phone ring at work, but I
found his message and left about forty-five minutes later. He’s okay. We got
lucky and nothing happened, not that I can tell.”
“You
sure that asshole didn’t touch him?” Ruger asked.
“Noah
said he tried to tickle him and make him sit on his lap, but he ran away. They
were completely cross-faded. I don’t think they even noticed when he took off.
He was hiding outside on the fire escape.”
“Fuck .
. .” Ruger said. He didn’t sound happy. “How high up was he?”
“Four
stories,” I replied, closing my eyes in shame. “It’s a miracle he didn’t fall.”
“Okay,
I’m driving. I’ll talk to you later. Don’t fucking leave him alone again, or
you’ll answer to me. You got that?”
“Yeah,”
I whispered. I hung up the phone and set it down on the table. The room felt
stifling and I couldn’t get enough air, so I crept softly across the floor to
the window. The splintery wooden sash slid up with a groan and I leaned out, looking
down at the street, sucking in the cool breeze. The bars had just emptied and
people laughed outside, walking along like everything was fine and dandy.
What if
I hadn’t checked the voice mail? Would any of these happy drunks have looked up
and seen a little boy clinging to the fire escape? What if he’d fallen asleep
out there?
Noah
could be dead on that pavement right now.
I
finished my beer and grabbed a second one, then sat on my ratty couch and
pounded it. The last time I checked the clock, it said three a.m.
A noise
in the predawn darkness woke me. Noah?
A hand
covered my mouth as a large body came down over mine, pinning me to the couch.
Adrenaline poured through me too late—no matter how I struggled, bucking my
entire body against his, my attacker held me trapped. All I could think about
was Noah, sleeping right across the room. I needed to fight and survive for my
son, but I couldn’t move and I couldn’t see a damned thing in the darkness.
“You
scared?” a rough, dark voice whispered in my ear. “Wondering if you’ll live
through the night? What about your kid? I could rape and kill you and then sell
him to some sick pedophile fuck. You couldn’t do a goddamned thing to stop me,
now could you? How you gonna protect him livin’ in a place like this, Sophie?”
Fuck. I
knew that voice.
Ruger.
He
wouldn’t hurt me. Asshole.
“I
didn’t even have to break through the fuckin’ pathetic lock you have on this
shithole,” he continued, shifting his hips over mine, emphasizing how little
control I held. “Your window’s open and so is the window in the hallway. I just
stepped out on the fire escape and walked right over, which means anyone else
could, too. Including that sick fuck who messed with our boy earlier. That
bastard still in the building? I want him, Sophie. Nod your head if you’ll stay
quiet, and I’ll let you talk. Don’t scare Noah.”
I nodded
my head as best I could, trying to calm the racing of my heart, torn between
the remains of fear and my building anger.
How dare
he judge me?
“You
scream, you’ll pay.”
I jerked
my head. He pulled his hand away, and I took several deep breaths, blinking
rapidly, trying to decide if lunging at him with my teeth would be worth it.
Probably not… Ruger was heavy and he covered my entire body, his legs clamping
down across mine, my arms trapped deep in the couch. I couldn’t remember him
ever voluntarily touching me before—not for four years, at least. That was a
good thing, because something about Ruger turned off my brain in a bad way,
leaving my body in charge.
I got
knocked up the last time I left my body in charge.
I’d
never regret my son, but that didn’t mean I should let my libido do the thinking
for me again. After I finally got shot of Zach, I’d only gone out with very
safe, very boring men. I’d had three lovers total in my life, and numbers two
through three were nice and tame. I didn’t need a complication like my son’s
biker uncle . . . But I’d caught his familiar scent now—gun oil and a hint of
male sweat—which led to an annoyingly predictable response down below.
Even
angry, I wanted Ruger.
In fact,
I usually wanted him more when I was angry. This was unfortunate,
because he had a gift for pissing me off. Life would be so much simpler if I
could just hate him. The man was truly an asshole.
He just
happened to be an asshole who loved the hell out of my kid.
So now
he lay on top of me and I wanted to head-butt him or something, but I also felt
embarrassing heat pool between my legs. He was big and hard and right there and
I didn’t know how to handle that. Ruger always kept his distance from me. I
expected him to let me up now that he’d made his point in the least constructive
way possible, but that didn’t happen. Instead he shifted again, leaning up on
his elbows on either side of me, holding me trapped.
His legs
moved, one coming to rest between mine. Way too intimate. I tried to close my
knees, but he narrowed his eyes and slid his hips into the cradle of my pelvis.
Wrong.
So wrong . . . And unfair, too, because clenching him between my legs didn’t
exactly make my brain work better. I squirmed, needing him to be far away from
me. Immediately. Yet I couldn’t help wondering whether I could reach down
between us and open his fly.
The man
was like heroin—seductive, addictive, and a damned good way to wake up dead.
“Hold
still,” he whispered, voice strained. “The fact that my dick’s in its happy
place is probably saving your life. Trust me when I say I’m seriously
considerin’ strangling you, Sophie. Thinking about fuckin’ you helps balance
that out.”
I froze.
I
couldn’t believe he’d just said that. We had an agreement. We’d never discussed
it, but we both followed it scrupulously. Sure enough, though, he pressed his
hips into mine again and I felt his hard length growing against my stomach. My
inner muscles clenched, sending a wave of need wrenching through me. This was
cheating. The infatuation went one way—I lusted after him, he ignored me, and
we pretended nothing had ever happened between us.
I licked
my lips and his eyes followed the small movement, unfathomable in the dim light
starting to filter through the windows. “You don’t mean that,” I whispered. He
narrowed his eyes, studying me like a lion scoping out the slowest gazelle.
Wait, did
lions
eat gazelles? Was this really happening?
Think.
“This isn’t
you, Ruger,” I told him. “Think about what you just said. Let me up and we’ll
talk.”
“I
fucking mean every word,” he replied, harsh and angry. “I hear my kid is in
trouble and his mom’s nowhere to be found. I spend hours driving across the
state, scared shitless that someone’s molesting or murdering our boy, and when
I finally get here I find you in a total shithole with a broken lock on the
downstairs door and easy access to your apartment through an open window. I
crawl in and find you passed out on the couch half naked and smellin’ like
beer.”
He
dropped his head down, scenting me and twisting his hips into mine. Shit, that
felt good. I actually ached between my legs, it felt so good.
“I
could’ve taken him away from you, easy as fuck,” he continued, raising his
head, eyes burning through me. “And if I could, so could anyone else, which is
not fuckin’ okay. So you’ll just have to sit tight and wait for me to cool down
a little because right now I’m not feeling particularly reasonable. Until then,
I’d suggest you not tell me what I mean, you got that?”
I nodded
my head, eyes wide. I believed every word he said. Ruger held my gaze as he
shifted his legs again and then both were between mine and I felt every inch of
his dick right up against my crotch. He surrounded me completely, overwhelming
me with his strength, and I had a sudden, crazy flashback to that night I’d
lost my virginity to Zach in his apartment.
Me
sprawled on a couch, legs spread, watching my life fall to shit.
Full
circle.
Adrenaline
still raced through me, and he wasn’t the only one who needed to cool down a
bit. He’d scared me, damn it, and now the bastard was turning me on, a
sensation that mixed disturbingly well with the anger and fear already
overwhelming my system. I really couldn’t move, either. Ruger dropped his head
down next to mine and groaned, grinding his hips into me. A swirl of tingling,
tightening, traitorous desire twisted up along my spine from my pelvis. I
moaned as he pressed hard against my clit. This felt good. Too good.
My inner
slut suggested a surefire way to burn off tension . . .
As if
reading my mind, Ruger’s breath caught. Then he pushed into me harder, rubbing
his length back and forth against the thin layer of cotton covering my center.
Neither of us said anything but I tilted my hips up to feel him better and he
stiffened.
This is
a bad idea, I thought, arching into him, closing my eyes.
I’d wanted him for years. Every time I saw him, I secretly wondered what he’d
feel like inside me.
Of
course, if we did this, I’d still have to look at his smug, smirking face. He
wouldn’t even be embarrassed, the stupid jerk. We had to stop immediately. But
he felt fucking incredible. His scent surrounded me, the hard strength of his
body pinning and spreading me like a captured butterfly. His nose brushed the
curve of my ear and then he dropped lower, giving my neck a slow, sucking kiss,
lips dragging across my skin until I had to bite my own to stay quiet. I
twisted underneath him and acknowledged the truth. I wanted him deep inside.
Now.
I didn’t
care that captured butterflies die when they’re pinned. “Mama?”
Shit.
I tried
to speak but nothing came out. I cleared my throat and tried again, the heat of
Ruger’s breath playing across my cheek. My entire body throbbed, and he
shifted, slowly dragging his hips across mine again, deliberately taunting me.
Bastard.
“Hey,
baby,” I called to Noah, my voice unsteady. “Um, give me a sec, okay? We have
company.”
“Is it
Uncle Ruger?”
Ruger
thrust against me one last time before jackknifing up. I sat up unsteadily,
rubbing my hands up and down my arms. Noah’s voice should’ve been cold water on
my libido, but no such luck. I still felt Ruger’s delicious hardness between my
legs.
“I’m
here, little man,” Ruger said, standing and running his hands across his head.
I studied him in the dim morning light, wishing with all my heart he looked
more like my former boss, Dick. No such luck. Ruger was over six feet tall,
roped with muscle and annoyingly handsome in an I’m-probably-a-murderer-but-I’ve-got-dimples-and-a-tight-ass-so-you’ll-still-lust-after-me
kind of way. Sometimes he wore a mohawk, but the last few months he’d taken to
wearing the same buzz cut he had when we first met, the slightly longer hair on
top dark and thick.
Combined
with his size, his piercings, his black leather club vest, and the tattooed
sleeves on both arms, he belonged on a “Wanted” poster. Noah should’ve been
terrified of him. But he didn’t seem to notice how scary his uncle was. He
never had.
“I
promised I’d come get you, didn’t I?” Ruger said softly. Noah crawled out of
bed and stumbled over to Ruger, reaching his arms up for a hug. Ruger caught my
boy and swung him high, meeting his gaze eye-to-eye, man-to-man. Ruger always
did that—he took Noah seriously.
“You
okay, bud?”
Noah
nodded, wrapping his arms around his uncle’s neck and clutching him close. He
worshipped Ruger, and the feeling was mutual. The sight was heartbreaking.
I always
thought Zach would be Noah’s hero. Obviously, my instincts were shit.
“I’m
proud of you, little man,” Ruger told him. I stood, planning to join them, but
Ruger turned away. So he wanted some privacy. I wasn’t going to argue if it
made Noah feel safe, but I still strained to hear the conversation as he
carried my boy back to bed.
“You did
good callin’ for help,” I heard him say faintly. “You ever get in a situation
like that again, you call me. Call your mama. You can call the cops, too. You
remember how to do that?”
“Nine
one one,” Noah muttered, his voice sleepy and thick. A giant yawn caught him
off guard and he slumped against Ruger’s shoulder. “But I’m only supposed to do
that in an emergency and I wasn’t sure if I’d get in trouble.”
“A bad man
touches you, that’s an emergency,” Ruger murmured. “But you did your best, you
did what I said. You hid and that was real good, little man. I want you to lie
down and go back to sleep, okay? In the morning I’m taking you to my house and
you’ll never have to see those people or this place again. But you can’t come
with me if you’re too tired.”
I caught
my breath. What the hell?
I
watched as he tucked Noah in, my mood far from mellow. Seconds later my kiddo
was out again, clearly still exhausted. I pulled on a robe and waited for Ruger
to come back, crossing my arms and bracing for battle.
He
cocked a brow at me, deliberately checking me out. Was he trying to use sex to
bully me? That might explain his little seduction-on-the-couch game . . .
“You
forget the part about not pissin’ me off?”
“Why did
you tell Noah he’s going to your house? You can’t make promises like that.”
“I’m
taking him home to Coeur d’Alene with me,” Ruger replied, his voice
matter-of-fact. He tilted his head to the side, waiting for the fight he had to
know was coming. His neck was thick with muscles and his biceps flexed as he
crossed his arms, matching my stance. It really wasn’t fair. A man this
frustrating should be short and fat, with hairy ears or something. But it didn’t
matter how sexy he was this time, I wouldn’t cave—he wasn’t Noah’s dad and he
could step the fuck off. “I’m betting you’ll want to come with us, and
that’s great. But he’s not stayin’ in this shithole another night.”
I shook
my head slowly and deliberately. I felt the same way about our apartment—it
didn’t feel safe anymore—but I wasn’t going to let him just swoop in and take
over. I’d find us a new place. I wasn’t quite sure how, but I’d do it.
I’d
spent the last seven years honing my survival skills.
“You
don’t get to make that decision. He’s not your son, Ruger.”
“Decision’s
made,” Ruger replied. “And he may not be my son, but he’s definitely my kid. I
claimed him the minute he was born, and you damned well know it’s true. I
didn’t like how you took him so far from me, but I respect why you did it.
Things have changed now. Mom’s dead, Zach’s gone, and this”—he gestured around
the ratty little studio—“this isn’t good enough. What the fuck do you need in
your life that’s more important than giving Noah a safe place to live?”
I glared
at him.
“What’s that
supposed to mean?”
“Keep it
down,” Ruger told me, stepping forward into my space, pushing me back. It was a
power play, pure physical intimidation. I’ll bet it usually worked for him,
too, because when he loomed over me like that every survival instinct I had
told me to roll over and follow his orders. Something quivered down below . . .
Stupid body.
“It
means exactly what it sounds like,” he continued. “What the fuck are you
spending your child support on? Because it sure as shit isn’t this hellhole.
And why the fuck did you move out of your other place? It wasn’t great, but it
was okay, and it had that little park and playground. When you told me you were
moving, I thought that meant you found something nicer.”
“I’m
here because I got evicted for not paying my rent.”
His jaw
tightened convulsively. His expression darkened, something impossible to read
filling his eyes.
“You
wanna tell me why—exactly—I’m just hearin’ about this situation?”
“No,” I
replied honestly. “I don’t want to tell you anything. It’s none of your
business.”
He
stilled, taking a series of deep breaths. Long seconds passed, and I realized
he was consciously forcing himself to calm down. I thought he’d been angry
before, but the cold fury that came off of him now was a whole new level . . .
I shivered. That was one of the many problems with Ruger. Sometimes he scared
me. And the guys in his club?
Ruger
was poison to a woman in my situation, no matter how sweet he was to Noah or
how badly my body craved his touch.
“Noah is
my business,” he finally said, each word slow and deliberate. “Everything
that touches him is my business. You don’t get it, that’s your problem, but
it ends tonight. I’m taking him home where it’s safe so I won’t ever get
another fucking phone call like that one again. Jesus, you haven’t even done
the basics to secure this place. Don’t you ever listen to me? I told you to get
some of those little alarms for the windows until I could come over and wire
the place up right.”
I
steeled my spine and held fast.
“One,
you don’t get to take him anywhere,” I said, trying very hard not to flinch or
let my voice tremble. I couldn’t afford to show any weakness, despite the fact
that I was perilously close to peeing myself. “And two, your asshole brother
hasn’t paid me any child support for nearly a year now. Health and Welfare
can’t find a trace of him, either. I did my best, but I couldn’t keep up the
rent on the other place. I can afford the rent here, so we moved. You have no
right to judge me—I’d like to see you raise a child on what I earn. They don’t
just give out those window alarms for free, Ruger.”
His jaw
twitched.
“Zach’s
working the oil fields in North Dakota,” he said slowly. “Makin’ damned good
money. I talked to him two months ago, about Mom’s estate. He said everything
was okay between you two.”
“He lied,”
I said forcefully. “That’s what he does, Ruger. This isn’t news. Are you
really surprised?”
I felt
suddenly tired—thinking about Zach always made me tired, but sleep wasn’t the
answer. He waited for me in my dreams, too. I always woke up screaming.
Ruger
turned and walked over to the window, leaning on the sill and looking outside
thoughtfully. Thank God, he seemed to be calming down. If he didn’t look so
deceptively attractive silhouetted in my window, my world would make sense
again.
“I guess
I shouldn’t be,” he said after a long pause. “We both know he’s a fuckin’ loser.
But you should’ve told me. I wouldn’t have let this happen.”
“It
wasn’t your problem,” I replied softly. “We were doing fine, at least until
tonight. My regular sitters all have that flu that’s going around. I made a
mistake. I won’t make it again.”
“No, you
won’t,” Ruger said, turning to face me. He tilted his head to the side, eyes
boring through me. He looked a little different, I realized. He’d lost a bunch
of his piercings. Too bad it hadn’t softened him up even a little bit, because
his expression was pure steel. “I won’t let you. It’s time to admit you can’t
do it all on your own. Club’s full of women who love kids. They’ll help out.
We’re a family, and family doesn’t stand by when someone’s in trouble.”
I’d
opened my mouth to argue when I heard a light knock on the door. Ruger pushed
off the window and strode over to open it.
A giant
of a man walked in, taller even than Ruger, which was saying something. He wore
faded jeans, a dark shirt and a black leather vest covered with patches, just
like Ruger’s, including his name and a little red diamond with a 1% symbol on
it.
All the
Reapers had them, and my old friend Kimber had told me it meant they were
outlaws—that I had no trouble believing.
This new
guy had shoulder-length, darkish hair and a face so perfectly handsome he
could’ve been a movie star. Under one arm he held a stack of broken-down
cardboard boxes, tied together with what looked like baling wire.
In the
other he held an aluminum baseball bat and a roll of duct tape.
I
swallowed and nearly fainted. My hands actually started sweating, because I’m
cliché like that. My nemesis hadn’t just come to rescue us, he’d brought along
one of his accomplices. That was the biggest problem with Ruger—he was a
package deal. You bought one Reaper, you bought them all.
Well,
all of them who weren’t currently serving time.
“This is
one of my brothers, Horse,” Ruger said, closing the door behind him. “He’s
gonna help us move your shit. Stay quiet, but start packing whatever you want
to bring. You’ll be staying in the basement at my place. Don’t think you’ve
seen my new property,” he added pointedly, which I knew was a dig at me for
refusing his offer of a room at the beginning of the summer when we visited
Coeur d’Alene. “But it’s got a daylight basement with a kitchen and everything,
and you’ll have your own little patio. There’s tons of space for Noah to run
around, too. It’s furnished, so only bring what you really care about. The rest
of this shit can stay.”
He
glanced around the room, judging my furniture. I saw his point. Most of it had
been scrounged off curbs next to dumpsters. The finer pieces came from thrift
stores.
“How’s
the kid?” Horse asked softly, setting the boxes down and leaning them against the
wall. Then he hefted the bat, giving it a little toss and catching it with his
other hand. I couldn’t help but notice how thick his arms were. Apparently club
life wasn’t all drinking and whoring, because Ruger and his friend obviously
did some serious weight lifting. “Did the bastard touch him? What’re we dealing
with?”
“Noah’s
fine,” I said quickly. I eyed the tape, which Horse had failed to deposit next
to the folded boxes. “He was scared, but it’s over now. And we really don’t
need your help, because we aren’t going back to Coeur d’Alene.”
Horse
ignored me, glancing toward Ruger.
“The guy
still here?”
“Dunno
yet,” Ruger replied. He looked to me. “Sophie, show us which apartment they’re
in.”
“What
are you going to do?” I asked, glancing between them. Their faces were
completely blank. “You can’t actually kill him. You know that, right?”
“We
don’t kill people,” Ruger said, his voice calm and almost soothing. “But
sometimes assholes like him have accidents when they aren’t careful. Can’t
control that—it’s a fact of life. Show us where he is.”
I looked
at Horse’s big, strong hands holding his baseball bat and the roll of duct
tape, one thumb caressing the silver surface. Then I thought about Noah
clinging to a fire escape, four stories high, hiding from a “bad man” who
wanted him to sit on his lap so he could tickle him.
I
thought about the booze and the pot and the porn.
Then I
walked to the door, opened it and pointed across the hall toward Miranda’s
studio.
“They’re
in there.”
OMG I LOVE THIS (DEE)
ReplyDeleteWOW!! Do I really have to wait 2 months to read the rest? So not fair but I can't wait.
ReplyDeleteI've been waiting for this second book and hate having to wait until January especially after reading the excerpt! I loved that Horse was the friend who was right there for Ruger as I loved him so much in the first book.
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